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| User: | bethrose (1120552)   Build a Bridge to be free.....
The Path to Myself. |
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| Name: | Lost in my own soul | |||||
| Website: | My Domain | |||||
| Location: | Orange, California, United States | |||||
| Birthdate: | 1974-01-08 | |||||
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| Bio: | If you want to read about the scenarios that my mind comes up with that I have to just write down to get them out of system they are on ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} mindsludgeHey welcome to my journal information page. I make no apologies for my journal. Its me trying to work out my crazy feelings and thoughts. Sometimes its crazy, maddening, sad, and even happy. One of the things that you will notice about me is that I am trully self aware. I know that I am lost in the middle of trying to find myself and reinvent who I am. I have found that the person I was trying to be really is not working out so well. I am really want to be as true to myself as I possibly can be. My goal is to try to figure out who I am and to stop trying to be what other people want me to be. I always end up hurting really bad when I do that. I am a christian but its often hard to see that in how I live. I don't always live my life as I should. I love God don't get me wrong and I trully believe in Him. I believe that without Him guilding me along I probably would have died a long time ago. I wish that I could say that my life is a shining example of what a christian should be. But I am a human being and I am a shining example of what a true human is like. I live each day one day at a time struggling to find my way just like everyone else. I am not perfect and I never will be perfect. As soon as I figured that one out I felt better about alot of things. LOL I struggle alot with self-esteem. I often feel as though I am not worth the love and care that people are so kind to give. It is my supreme hope that in time I will recover again and be the upbeat, positive person I once was. Most people who do know me in real life when I am spending time with them will get that part of my personality. Its a front that I put up for them. No one likes a depressed person. My true and best friends see the depressed end of me. They are my real friends the ones that can see this side of me. If you are still reading I am proud of you. Most of my past entries are public, however the stuff over the last year or more has been friends only. Read a few and if they catch your interest and you feel like learning more about me go ahead and comment and add me. I will probably add you back. I really am a fun person despite all my anxiety and depression. Just ask my close and personal friends. You will see. | |||||
| Memories:: | 23 entries | |||||
| Pictures: | over 100 public | |||||
| Interests: | 126: "friendly", acting, aeone, anachronism, anthropology, battlestar gallactica, beauty, bi, bi-curious, bisexual, blogging, bowling, candles, cary elwes, castles, christianity, computer games, cooking, cuddling, cute guys, dancing, david bowie, debian, depression, deutsch, dragons, evil, fantasy, final fantasy, flowers, friendship, garden, gargoyles, german, god, hamsters, healing, health, hearts, hell, hello kitty, history, hockey, horses, hug, humor, insight, jerry o'connell, jesus christ, johnny depp, joshua jackson, joy, kevin sorbo, kings, knight, lady, life, livejournal, ljmaps_bethrose, lord, lord of the rings, lotr, love, magic, make-up, marc bartolomeo, martial arts, matt damon, medievalism, meditation, midieval, moon, movies, music, mythology, nature, neverending story 2, ocean, pandas, parasite eve, performance art, piracy, plants, playstation, poetry, princes, princess, princess bride, ps one, psii, psone, queens, rain, reading, red griffin, richard hatch, robert anthony aviles, rock n' roll, romance, roses, rpg, sailor moon, sarcasm, satanism, sca, sculpting, seth green, sex, silliness, simcity, singing, sleep, sleeping, solitude, stuffed animals, swimming, the sims, twister, unicorns, video games, volleyball, water, wicca, wil wheaton, witch, writing | |||||
| Schools: | None listed | |||||
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| Mutual Friends: | 29: agents_smith, avantepunk, benyghted, bethrose, bethsjourney, brittany_moore8, carnyval, catwoman69y2k.insanejournal.com, crimson_storm, dream_runner, endorphan, glittercat13, halcyonpink, iamchrist_lj, jagged_xtc, jthejester, kaleb7, kingofswords, kylefuetzvater, marius, mindsludge, mofo_mistress03, mstrsdrkdreamer, pixelene, rockyangel, roguevla, sorrowandsleep, tassypink, uniqueblog | |||||
| Also Friend of: | 2: akabetina, ias99 | |||||
| Member of: | 22: 1millionjourney, battlestargal, change_2008, damashifanclub, feedback, frankthecomic, gather_fandom, howto_userdoc, jonathanbrandis, lasfs, lithium_picnic, lj_2008, lj_dev, lj_nifty, lj_translate, lj_userdoc, millionjourney, paidmembers, pinkleeloo, richard_hatch, sca, uniquenudes | |||||
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